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I’m about to take a risk here. I’m giving you the chance to show me how much you think I am worth as a pro Domme. My main risk is probably to my ego, although I reckon my finances are pretty vulnerable too. But something isn’t sitting right with me in all of this. People have questioned my authenticity in saying I do this for love not money, then charging £150 for one hour of my time. I explained why in the previous article, but now I am going to try an experiment .
Recently I have had a lot of offers from people wanting to be my slave, and a lot of people complaining that I am too expensive in this ‘economic climate’. There are superficial reasons I charge the amount that I do. I am in the same region as most pro-dommes, I think to charge much less would throw questions over my skill levels (Why is she cheaper, she must not be as good?). I may only see you for an hour or two, but also consider there is time spent setting up for our session, negotiating our session, and the time I have spent working on my website so you can read if we might be suitable, the time spent doing SEO and advertising so you could find me, the time and money spent learning the skills I use on you, the money I spend on toys and outfits for our sessions, the cost of the dungeon and probably plenty of other things besides. All of these into account, I am not unreasonable. But these are all superficial and subject to much negotiation and opinion. The most important reason is below.
I’ve been in pain, physical pain for nearly 24 hours in different places in my body. Initially I took painkillers, it was so intense that was all I could do. The pain moved to different places, womb, head, stomach, back. I was reminded that in order to get through something we need to go into it and really feel it. So I let the painkillers wear off and lay there feeling sensations all through my core. Then I felt the need to write. Below is the word-vomit that came out, almost entirely unedited (just a few little bits added). I wasn’t in pain after writing this.
I did say I would be more honest on this blog. Here’s some good head mess.
I don’t feel comfortable with the term ‘Magic’, except for card tricks and stage shows. I like to understand everything, so high blown concepts of universal energy creating magic sound poetic to me, like pretty stories, not real life. I am more open now, and will generally listen to an idea with interest, then try to find a way that it would fit into my world view. Often it can with a bit of tweaking. More and more I am realising that semantics is everything. An idea can be explained in Tantric terms, or scientific, or religious. People in these fields will often disregard the others, but they are all saying the same thing.
